Commitments

I sit in the silence of my upstairs bedroom. I hear the voices of my loved ones downstairs going about their day. Reflecting on this past week of youth camp is like thinking about a dream. My life is empty of so many things i had before camp. Music, movies, TV shows, doubts,... life is so different already. I honestly don't know what to do with myself! I have so much to do, yet I have nothing I used to do. I'm trying to fill my time with cleaning, organizing, spending time in prayer and in the Word of GOD. It has been going well, yet I feel like i'm trying to completely remake who i have become! Trying to tear down what i have created in myself so GOD can create what HE wants me to be. It is so humbling. It is exciting, yet scary! Placing my faith back into HIS hands instead of my own. Yes, growing up in a good christian home and church makes it easier. "Easier" that is the key word! Not "Easy"! I've only been back from camp since this past Saturday and I've already had to struggle with my commitments! I steadily hope that people are praying for me to keep them! I continue to hopefully remind myself that if I can just continue to keep them until July 7th when I leave for Ethiopia then I have a true chance to keep my commitments! I know that is probably not the best way to think, but honestly, I have an extremely hard time with it! If I can do it with the LORD's help until July 7th, I will have no choice after that for another three to five months! GOD has lined everything up perfectly so I don't have to do it completely on my own! None of us do! So teenagers of Cornerstone don't drop the ball! Stay strong in your commitments! We can stand together and encourage each other. Iron sharpeneth iron! When I sat down to type i had no idea what i was going to write but I hope and pray that you will all pray for me and each other! Let's not slide this time! It gets harder each time to get back up, so lets stand and keep on standing! Thanks for reading me rambling on! :)    

~Sarah